As I sit and wait for our geneticist and our genetic counselor to enter the room, I am sick to my stomach. There are so many thoughts going through my head. What will we learn today? Will I walk out of this room a different person? Will I walk out of this room relived or even more scared? What will I learn today about Ava, Oskar, Lucy, Justin? What will I learn today about myself?  Will I ever be able to go back to the space I am in now?  I have always believed that power is knowledge but I also know that you cannot “unknow” something.